Time Flies

Wow, just the other day I had been wondering how long its been since I last updated this blog and gosh its been a while and so much has happend to me since August 27th.

I've met a big group of new people, i've had a boyfriend, which turned into an ex boyfriend haha.

I feel like i've become more confident in talking to people i'm still getting to know or have just met. Which is a major brake through for me! since i'm not the most confident person out there :)

Also on the topic of confidence, when I talk to a guy i've just met I usually stay quite but within these couple of months past the end of August I swear i've flourished in that department. It's actually so easy to talk to them! As long as their willing to talk to you in return hah.

I actually feel really good right now.

I just finished the book 'Before I fell' by Lauren Oliver. It was such a fantastic book and I feel like I have somehow accomplished something just by reading it.

Also when I see something or get asked to join in for something during school or just with my friends I usually hesitate and just say NO. But These past two, three months now I keep saying to myself, mentally of-course, 'You only live once.' which actually encourages me to do more things so I wont regret not doing anything while im still young and finding my place on this planet.

I think that's all I'm going to write for now, I dont really think theres much more to say at this point in time.

But i'm sure, for once, that I can actually say i'm quietly happy with how things are apart from one thing in particular. But other than that.. :)

At last;

I've gotten back from the doctors, turns out I should probably start going to counciling at school.

Then my doctor said if I feel like i'm not progressing and I still feel the same, then I will be referred on to someone else. Possibly pills or something. I dont know.

I want to keep track of these thing, it'd be good to read back onto this.

Make Me Happy

I have an appointment at the doctors fo 3pm today, so thats in about half and hour away.

I'm going to see if I can get something to help me feel more positive because somethings just not right with me at the moment.

I feel as if its just getting worse so if I can get some pills to make me not feel like crying each day like my mum has then, Oh man, would I take them!

I'm just waiting for mum to get home from work so we can go.

I'm nervous.

Hmm..

'Our Little Secret' by Allayne Webster

"Nothing ever happens in Wattleton - at least not without the whole town knowing.

Anne-Marie and Edwina have kept their secrets from everyone, and their secrets are the kind that will hurt - everyone.

A remarkable story of romantic dreams, guilt and fear. A story of exploitation and power.

A story every girl should read."

I just finished reading this book.

It was quite a sad book, but it did have some funny moments.

I actually found this book at the library on a display shelf and was inticed by the books cover, so I read that back and I wasn't too sure at first if I should get it but I opened the book up to a random page, read a little bit and decided I'd get it out.

This lil part of the book reminded me of a moment that I thought in my life 3 months ago:

"I placed the daisies by the graveside. I looked at the coffin. I couldn't connect with the idea that inside lay Anne-Maire's body that I would never see again."

"Why did she have to do this?

Why?

I had no answer. Only Anne-Marie knew the answer."

It's a book I could imagine being a really good movie.

Dude.

Last night was Crazy!

First off I went to town with Desiree and Kayla, it wasn't very busy at all, to kill time.

Then we ended off bussing back to some guy desiree knew and stayed at his for a bit and had drinks there then we finally started walking to this Jack guys house for a gig after party, dude so many people were there and desiree told me that some chick got the end of her finger cut off from it getting a door slammed on it, or something like that.

I saw some people I hadn't seen in quite awhile,

Talked to a fair amount of randoms hah.

Met some really nice people who were so funny haha.

Some creepy huge gay guy touched me and all this crap happend then some chick i had met last night was saying I could tell the cops but it wasnt as bad as that makes it sound, I hope I never see him again, ugh.

OH, and pretty much the whole of last night/morning I went around telling the guy I like that I thought he was gorgeous as and i'm pretty sure I said something like he was the only one that could touch my boobs, I have no clue what I was thinking.

Oh well, you only live once.

TOMORROW!

ITS MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW.

WEEEEE!

Oh yeah,

it's my birthday in 11 days

12 August .. woo hoo.