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Jess, you're all I think about now.

Forever on my mind.

You're in my thoughts while I'm talking to another person.

For instance, I could be talking to someone about cheesecake and you'll be in my thoughts.

Its something I'm getting used to.

I keep thinking I'll see you at school, each day.

I'm always thinking I'll see you walking, down any street.

Then reality hits me again and I remember, I probably wont see you.

I get my hopes up.

I think I'm going to have an obsession with i-D magazine. It's super fantastic!

It's packed full of pictures and quirky things, and quite a few interviews with quirky/smart people. Love it!

I think I might start a journal, I like to think that if I started it now, in a few years if I'm still around since that's not promised to anyone, that I'll be able to see what I thought about things and to see if I still have the same emotions towards things that I might not have in a few years.

Also, just these last two weeks I'm starting to think that I'm actually rather smart.

I used to get people telling me how smart I was and I'd be embarrassed about it but now I actually take it as a compliment. Theres nothing wrong with being smart.

So yes, about the journal, since it's just the beginning of my 2 weeks holiday I really want to go to the shops near the beach and buy one. On saturday - tomorrow - I shall go and do that.

I really enjoy writing long blogs, I want to do this more often. It takes some weights off my shoulders.

I love how I can write what I'm thinking, it really does help me relax.

I think I'm going to have an early night tonight.

Ah, yes.

Wonderful.

03/06/10 never forget this day, ever.

Today I found out that my Best Friend in the whole Universe died.
She was gorgeous, very sure of herself and the cutest thing ever!
And I loved her to bits.

I miss her Sosososo much! :(
I wish I could've spent more time with her,
I feel like this is all a dream. Like this can't be true!

yesterday she seemed fine , today she didn't turn up at school. wasn't unusual at all.
Until I got asked to go to the head masters office and got told the news.

Jess, I love you so much. I don't think I ever told you, but I looked up to you. I thought you were the greatest thing ever!
I was going to text you today saying that we should hang more often together before you move to Australia, but something told me not to send it.
I hope you're okay where ever you are, and I hope you're with your mum.

I'm so confused Jess! I really just wished you had told me if something was wrong, I was always there to listen!

I need to go rest, i'm seeing Mitch tomorrow morning hopefully. I'll talk to him.

I Love you Jessica Amy Anderson!


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